
Space. It’s a funny thing.
Kubrick knew that.
Because if you start a story with apes, how can it not be funny?
Then again, doesn’t everything that’s about humans start with apes?
Here’s the funny thing about space: Ask people what they think about it and you’ll get every kind of answer. We should colonize Mars! We should stay home! We should look for life! Space, really, is a giant Rorschach. Into it we send rockets and satellites and space stations. But more than that, we send beliefs. About what is meaningful. About what is possible. About what is inescapable.

March 2016 Photo by: Photograph by Dan Winters; Nebula by Ash Thorp
Look, I’m no space nut. More of a space optimist: I believe in the mission. The night Neil Armstrong walked off the lunar module and onto the moon, I was there—next to my mother. She kept my 7-year-old brother and me from falling asleep, jostling us every few minutes as we sat on either side of her on the living room sofa, so we could witness history. The night Skylab fell from the sky, I sat in the parking lot of the grocery store next to our house, sure that I would catch a piece of it. Bruce McCandless making that first untethered spacewalk in 1984? I watched with shivers of dread and awe—stunned by the image of him floating, seemingly adrift. And then there was the winter morning I walked into my college cafeteria to punch in for my shift as a dishwasher when Doc, one of the cooks, walked by holding his transistor radio to his ear and telling us the Challenger had exploded. When Columbia broke up over Texas, it was early on a Saturday morning, and I heard the news as I was driving through empty back roads in New Jersey.
If you ask me what I think about space, I say this: I have always believed there is, somewhere in our core, a need to push forward. To explore what is over the next horizon. We are curious. We are knowledge-seekers. We are tool-makers. We are problem-solvers. Get off the beach or die. Get off this rock or die. That’s what I project into the void.
But somewhere along the way—maybe when NASA discontinued the Space Shuttle—I, like a lot of people, lost the sense of what forward means. (Forward to where? Forward to what?) My whole life I had gazed up, tracing the ballistic trajectory of the US space program, and suddenly that trajectory showed me only the vast emptiness of … space.
Now space is back. Musk, Branson, Bezos. Each pursuing a pet project: Build reusable rockets and ultimately colonize Mars. Send ultrarich tourists on the world’s most expensive roller coaster. Mine asteroids. NASA, meanwhile, keeps plugging away at its science and robots.
It’s hard to know how seriously to take any of it—there’s no focus. Yet the pace of space news keeps accelerating like a hailstorm on a roof. There are new images of Pluto. Signs of water on Mars. Viral videos of rockets blown to smithereens as they attempt ludicrous vertical landings. Then … viral videos of rockets executing those same ludicrous landings successfully.
A few months ago, between gigs and longing to clear my head, I took a road trip and ended up at the Very Large Array. You’ve seen it: a giant field of 27 white radio telescopes, mounted on railroad tracks, all turned toward the sky. It got me thinking about space again. And I realized: I don’t know how people dream about space anymore. What they believe about it. What I believe about it.
And an image popped into my head. A slick computer rendering of a sci-fi-looking building in the desert—roughly the shape of a manta ray—blue lights arrayed in a half-moon around it.
Spaceport America.
What the hell happened to Spaceport America?
Michael Hainey
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Michael Hainey (@michaelhainey) is the author of After Visiting Friends: A Son’s Story.
You remember Spaceport, right? Just over 10 years ago, New Mexico persuaded Richard Branson, who was then boasting of plans to start regular flights into outer space on Virgin Galactic space planes, to base his company in a deserted patch of the Jornada del Muerto desert, about 30 miles outside the town of Truth or Consequences. The state eventually plowed more than $200 million into developing and building the site. Branson signed a 20-year lease to be the prime tenant. And now the place is up and running. It’s not just a rendering; it is operational.
I couldn’t get it out of my mind. I’m not saying I pulled a full-on Richard Dreyfuss in Close Encounters of the Third Kind, sculpting my wife’s mashed potatoes into a scale model of the Spaceport facility. But I kept wondering: What is going on there? And were other people like me drawn to Spaceport as well?
I mean, we were promised spaceflights.


An F-1 rocket engine on display at the New Mexico Museum of Space History.
Did you know New Mexico is the cradle of rocketry? Of spaceflight? It is.
And yet when you think about America and space, what comes to mind? Florida? Sure. California? Check. But New Mexico?
Here in the land of enchantment, people are a little disenchanted with the rest of us for our ignorance.
“It’s kind of a load of crap, everyone thinking Florida is the place for space,” a woman tells me at the McDonald’s in Alamogordo. “New Mexico invented space.”
She has a case.
It all started with Robert Goddard, the guy who wrote the book on rocket science. Literally (A Method of Reaching Extreme Altitudes). Ninety years ago, before he came to New Mexico, Goddard launched the first liquid-fueled rocket at his aunt’s farm in Massachusetts. It came down two and a half seconds later in a cabbage patch, proving the viability of liquid propellants—and that Goddard was going to need a bigger yard. A few years later, looking for a wide-open, flat, non-cabbage-infested space where he could (a) see where a falling rocket landed and (b) know that the falling rocket would not set a neighbor’s house on fire once it did land, he moved to Roswell, New Mexico.
That Roswell.
It was in Roswell that Goddard set up his main workshop, where he built bigger and faster rockets and came up with the principles behind gyroscopic navigation. Shortly before he died in 1945, Goddard was taken to a Navy lab and shown a top-secret rocket that had been captured from the Nazis: the V-2, which Hitler had used to terrorize London. After the war, a bunch of V-2s were secretly shipped to, yes, New Mexico, where they were tested and dissected with the help of the very man who had masterminded their development under the Nazis, Wernher von Braun.
Twenty years after von Braun was making rockets for Hitler to bomb London, he was overseeing the American space program, building the Saturn V rocket that would fly us to the moon.
That’s what you learn—if you read closely—inside the New Mexico Museum of Space History, a small building located in Alamogordo, approximately 100 miles from Spaceport America.
Every time the space chimp saw a blue flashing light, he was to push a lever. If he didn’t, they shocked his feet with electricity.
The museum’s best exhibit, its most powerful relic, if you will, is not inside; it’s in the parking lot. Or, really, just next to the parking lot, buried at the foot of the flagpoles that bear the US and Smithsonian flags. Flags that are forever flapping in the winds coming off of the Sacramento mountains.
If you stand at the foot of the flagpoles and look down, that’s where you’ll see the plaque:
World’s First Astrochimp—Ham
Ham proved that mankind could live and work in space.
Dedicated March 28, 1983
Like I said, everything starts with apes. Before he was Ham, his handlers, called him simply Number 65. Or, sometimes, Chop Chop Chang. Before they could send humans into orbit, NASA’s scientists needed to know if spaceflight would badly slow a pilot’s reaction time. So they trained Number 65: Every time he saw a blue flashing light, he was to push a lever. If he didn’t, they shocked his feet with electricity. If he did, he got a banana pellet.
Mmmm … banana pellets.
On January 31, 1961, technicians strapped chimpanzee Number 65 into an 83-foot-tall Redstone rocket at Cape Canaveral and launched him into suborbital flight. The blue light flashed and the chimp pressed his lever. Sixteen minutes later, after he had ascended to an altitude of 157 miles, his pod plopped down in the Atlantic. America’s first hominid in space was home.
Only then did the Air Force name him Ham, after the Holloman Aeromedical Field Lab, where he was housed. If he had died, they didn’t want the public grieving over a chimp with a lovable name. Ham made the cover of Life magazine.
Five months later, Alan Shepard repeated the mission, minus the banana pellets.
Ham lived out the rest of his life in zoos. When he died, his remains came to Alamogordo.
You lead America into space and they bury you in a parking lot.
Well, most of you.
After he died at that zoo, the idea was to do an autopsy on Ham, then stuff his hide and put him on display at a museum. That was the plan, until word leaked out. People felt this was a bit too undignified for our first space hero (or maybe a bit too Soviet—it’s what the USSR did to Strelka, the dog they sent into orbit). So the government abandoned its plan for a stuff ’n’ show. It was decided Ham’s remains would get a proper burial—minus his skeleton. Once a science specimen, always a science specimen. His flesh was detached from his bones and his remains were sent to New Mexico. Ham’s skeleton lives on, as it were, in a drawer in Maryland at the National Museum of Health and Medicine.
You are a pioneer. A trailblazer for the space age. And what glory is yours? Nothing.
You end up a shell of your former chimp self.


The main hangar at Spaceport America.
Just west of the Museum is White Sands Missile Range, the secret-ish US military base where von Braun and his new employers tested all those captured V-2s. Ever since, the place has been where the US has tested rockets, from Patriot Missiles to nuke-delivery vehicles to Star Wars defense systems.
There’s a small “exhibit” just inside the heavily guarded gate of the base, and after the sentry spends 10 minutes running a background check on my driver’s license, I’m waved inside: “OK, New York, you’re good.”
The exhibit is a history of sorts of American rocketry since World War II; a greatest hits, I guess, of America’s first space age. Dozens of decommissioned missiles jut up out of the hard desert ground at steep angles, mimicking a moment in launch. It looks like the Cadillac Ranch for projectiles.
And as I wander through, I try to look at the plaques that seem to be placed in front of each missile. But the plaques are missing. There are metal frames, but they’re empty. Fifty or so missiles, and I can’t find one that has a name or a caption. All I’m left with is rockets without context.
Space. A funny thing.
A place of no context that we have to give context.
Slide: 1 / of 15. Caption: Caption: Mark Bleth, a tour guide for Spaceport America.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 2 / of 15. Caption: Caption: The main hangar of Spaceport America as seen through the desert landscape.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 3 / of 15. Caption: Caption: A sculpture called “Genesis” by artist Otto Rigan marks the entrance to Spaceport America.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 4 / of 15. Caption: Caption: The 12,000-foot-long runway at Spaceport America.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 5 / of 15. Caption: Caption: One thing that’s very evident at Spaceport America: a distinct lack of activity.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 6 / of 15. Caption: Caption: The main hangar, designed by Foster + Partners to blend into the landscape.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 7 / of 15. Caption: Caption: A road sign at Spaceport America.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 8 / of 15. Caption: Caption: A 1960s-era Little Joe 2 rocket on display at the New Mexico Museum of Space History.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 9 / of 15. Caption: Caption: The boosters of a Little Joe 2, the rocket used to test launch the escape system of the Apollo spacecraft.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 10 / of 15. Caption: Caption: Rockets and other memorabilia on display outside the New Mexico Museum of Space History.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 11 / of 15. Caption: Caption: A plaque marks the gravesite of Ham, the first chimp to go into space, outside the New Mexico Museum of Space History.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 12 / of 15. Caption: Caption: A decommissioned rocket on display at the White Sands Missile Range.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 13 / of 15. Caption: Caption: Dozens of decommissioned missiles jut out of the ground at the White Sands Missile Range, like a Cadillac Ranch for projectiles.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 14 / of 15. Caption: Caption: Stars over the White Sands Missile Range.Bryan Derballa
Slide: 15 / of 15. Caption: Caption: The Milky Way over New Mexico.Bryan Derballa
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Spend time in New Mexico and you start to hear about the two space ages. The first is all Goddard and von Braun and big, lumbering, one-off rockets the size of skyscrapers that are built by big government and the military-industrial complex for hundreds of millions of dollars so we can send a tiny group of humans to the moon. The second space age is all about you. And it’s all about something you hear a lot these days—that the “barrier to entry” is now low enough that soon, to paraphrase Elwood Blues, you, me, them, everybody will get to space.
Tours to the second age start at the town of Truth or Consequences.
At a welcome center, I sign in with an elderly woman behind the counter who wears a blue Spaceport America flight suit. The room seems to be an old auditorium, and on one side there is a small stage that sits empty, save for a folding table and an American flag. At the opposite end of the room there’s a number of rickety grade-school-level interactive exhibits. Like the plastic, kid-size rocket. Above it there’s a circular banner inscribed with the phrases “Living in Space, Working in Space, Playing in Space.” On the other side of the banner there are more words, but I am not sure whether these were written for Spaceport America or are someone’s leftover entry for a Soviet poetry competition: “Service, Routine, Muscular Tonality, Gastrointestinal Health.”
Not exactly firing up the next generation to science the shit out of shit.
While I am waiting for the tour to start, I meet Blair Williamson. A big guy. Firm handshake. “A recently retired solar-power businessman,” he offers. He and his wife had an extra day on their vacation, and he thought it important to see Spaceport.
“I’m a man who believes in sussing out opportunities. This is the next big thing,” he says. “If you ask me, it’s a mistake to go to Mars. We got to get back to the moon. Pronto.”
Why’s that?
“By the time we get to Mars and come back, there’ll be 10,000 Chinese on the moon, waving at us as we float by, and laughing. We need to get off this planet. And we need to get to the moon and then get locust-like.”
Locust-like?
“Yeah. Do what we as humans do best: decimate something. Strip it of everything of value. Then come back here.” He pauses. “But I fear we have lost that chance. I fear the Chinese are way ahead of us.”
Does China give Spaceport tours?


Mission control.
There were the Mercury Seven. Today, we are the Spaceport Thirteen—we who have come to ride a bus into the desert and learn what awaits us very soon in space. Our guide for the day is Mark Bleth. He’s thin and in his forties, with dusty-blond hair. Like the woman at the ticket desk, he also wears a blue jumpsuit. As our little bus chugs out of town for the 40-minute drive to Spaceport, Bleth tells us to look out the window. We are on a twisting, narrow mountain road. Bleth points out a large concrete structure in the distance: the Elephant Butte Dam.
He tells us how the dam came to be built in 1916. How the federal government, in order to construct such a massive public works project in the middle of nowhere, had to build a spur off of the main rail line to bring in supplies. The spur, he told us, was critical.
“So,” Bleth says, “that’s Spaceport America: the spur. Before we can get to space on a regular basis, we need to build the spur. And just as the railroad opened up this vast nothingness of America for commercial use, so will Spaceport help open space for America’s commercial use.”
Rockets are dangerous. Space is good at killing you—even before you get there.
Bleth pulls out a battered blue binder and flips it open to a photo of Jeff Bezos’ Blue Origin rocket executing a successful vertical landing. “Are you all familiar with this? It happened only a few weeks ago.” Murmurs of recognition ripple through the bus. “So that was here?” someone asks.
“No,” Bleth says. “No, that was not here. But we are hoping that Jeff will come and use our facility.”
A few minutes later, we arrive at Spaceport—a large, turtle-shell-shaped structure that emerges gently from the desert flatlands. We are led into the main building, where, inside, a giant mural covers the wall. Called The Journey Upward, it begins on the left with prehistoric hominids (again with the apes) staring with awe and wonder at the night sky and ends with an image of what looks like a space station. I ask Bleth if Branson’s rocket-planes will fly to that space station. “It’s not a space station,” he says. “That’s the Bigelow Aerospace Hotel. Mr. Branson plans to make regular flights there.” So mankind’s millions-of-years-in-the-making Journey Upward crescendos at a hotel?
“For now.”
For now.
Bleth leads us to some windows that look down on the large hangar below, where we can see SpaceShipTwo, Branson’s rocket-plane—or rather, a full-scale replica of it. “It’s only a mock-up,” Bleth tells us. Because, well, the original SpaceShipTwo no longer exists. In October 2014, during a test flight, the craft broke apart over the Mojave Desert when one of its pilots prematurely unlocked the ship’s braking mechanism. One pilot died; the other was ripped from the cockpit and managed to deploy his parachute. Branson vowed that the accident “would strengthen our resolve to make big dreams come true.” Virgin set to work building a new craft (which it unveiled in late February), but the tragedy has put all of Branson’s efforts at Spaceport in a freeze, with no one knowing when the next flight will be. It has also served as a reminder: Rockets are dangerous. Space is good at killing you—even before you get there.
“See up there?” Bleth says when we get out onto the tarmac, pointing back at the main building. “The third floor? That will be the Virgin Galactic astronaut lounge. While you are waiting for your flight, you will relax there, until it is time to depart. Then you will come down here and board your plane.”
Bleth tells us that in the first space age, only 546 humans went to space. “Think about that. But there are more than 700 people waiting to fly into space via private flights with Richard Branson. And he will start with his list of ‘founders,’ people like Leo DiCaprio. Pretty cool, right? And this is where they’ll depart from. Right here.” A waiting room before you zoom up 50,000 feet at approximately 2,300 miles per hour. Remember: Space is good at killing you. It’s hard to imagine Leo relaxing in this lounge.
The young woman next to me tells me she’s here on the tour because she’s camping her way across America. She’s a Doctor Who fan, and in one episode of the show, she says, there’s a Zygon invasion in Truth or Consequences. So she wanted to visit the town. The trip to Spaceport was something she decided to tack on. I ask her if she would ever go into space.
“Congress just passed a law where anything you discover in space, you own,” she says. “So, that’d be cool.”
The spaceport operations center is a smaller turtle-shaped building about a quarter mile from the hangar and space lounge. Bleth leads us inside to the receptionist’s desk, but there’s no receptionist. A glass wall allows visitors to see the row of monitors where operations personnel work. But no one’s sitting at them. There’s only a sign taped to the door by the current tenant, a company that is leasing the space and preparing for a mission Bleth can’t tell us about:
Acme Co.
Notice: Authorized Personnel Only
And then there’s an illustration of Wile E. Coyote, looking all cocky.
Most of the time, Bleth says, Spaceport is not in use. Companies other than Virgin sometimes lease the facilities to launch rockets or other things that go high into the sky. But a lot of the time, it’s like today: empty. This is a feature, not a bug, Bleth says. “Here, you get the best of both worlds. We are government-owned, private-enterprise-leased. Unlike NASA, we can bring in resources for each project,” he says. “We expand and contract as needed.”
There’s one last stop on the tour.
Bleth leads us through a door and into a garage with … fire trucks. These, at least, are not mock-ups. I think back to a video console I saw in the main building. It played a continuous loop of career opportunities at Spaceport: brush clearer, general maintenance technician, firefighter. (There were no listings for astronauts.) We all stand around, taking photos of the fire trucks. The only person who really seems impressed is a 5-year-old boy.
We get back on the bus for the trip home and an onboard video about the future of Spaceport. Mark tells us that after the video’s over he’s going to give us “quiet time, to contemplate,” and that he’d like all of us to close our eyes and “imagine what Spaceport and the second space age means for you, your children and grandchildren.” He pauses. “And,” he adds, “just like Ham the space monkey got banana pellets for correctly performing his tasks, I have an incentive for you all: cheddar-cheese crackers.” He holds up a little wicker basket with generic Cheez-Its and passes it down the aisle.
I close my eyes.
I hate Cheez-Its.
Driving back to my hotel across the empty landscape, it’s hard not to be depressed.
I just spent two hours at the place that’s supposed to make us all pioneers in the second space age, and all I can think is that it’s a concoction worthy of North Korea. That if I leaned on a wall, I might discover it is only cardboard and my hand might crash through it. That everything there is either hollow or dangerous. And that ACME/Wile E. Coyote sign taped to the doors? The metaphor is irresistible: Maybe Richard Branson is Road Runner, and we are all Wile E. Coyote, thinking we have just been delivered a beautiful gift, but instead we open the box and discover we are holding a bomb.
Boom.
Blink-blink.
Space. It’s a funny thing.


Mickey McManus and Dara Dotz, space tourists.
I spend the night in nearby Las Cruces, feeling frustrated. Thinking over my day, my biggest memories are of firetrucks and Cheez-Its. We were promised rocket ships, and we got … fire trucks.
The next day, I return to Truth or Consequences and find myself sitting in a coffee shop, nursing my growing disillusionment, when I meet two people who were on that morning’s Spaceport tour. They’re on a self-directed “space road trip” across America. They’ve already checked off NASA’s facilities in Huntsville, Alabama, the Johnson Space Center in Houston, and White Sands. She’s wearing a T-shirt that says “Mars or Bust”; he’s wearing one with a drawing of the solar system and an arrow to Earth, under which is the caption: “Everything Revolves Around Me.”
Her name is Dara Dotz. She’s an industrial designer, part of a team that just developed the first 3-D printer capable of working in zero gravity for NASA. They finished on budget and ahead of schedule. And now their printer is up in space, having traveled to the International Space Station on a SpaceX rocket. So Dotz has been busy making off-planet manufacturing—something essential to the next phases of space exploration—possible.
The guy’s name is Mickey McManus. Later I learn that he is the chair of Maya Design and the author of a book about the future of “pervasive computing.” I also learn that his favorite quote is this, attributed to Antoine St. Exupéry: “If you want to build a ship, don’t drum up people to collect wood and don’t assign them tasks and work, but rather teach them to long for the endless immensity of the sea.”
“The trouble with places like these is that they raise expectations. But if we don’t build places like these, the future doesn’t happen.”
The two of them are smart and easy to connect with. And as we sit over our coffee, I feel a misguided sense of relief that I am in the company of co-cynics. They do share a few laughs with me about the emptiness of Spaceport, the lack of activity. When I ask where they’re headed next on their tour, I throw in a little remark: “It can only get better from here.” They let it go. McManus replies that from here they’re going to make a stop in Vegas for CES.
“I’m not sure which place has more suckers,” I say. “Vegas or here.”
“What do you mean?” he asks.
“I mean, this place. Do you believe any of it?”
“Look,” McManus says, “it’s important that a place like this exists. Because unless we build places like this, the future does not happen. The trouble with places like these is that they raise expectations. And we live in a world where everyone wants what they want to see now. If there is waiting involved, people somehow think you have failed. But science doesn’t live on that timetable. And here’s the other thing: Going to the moon? Into space? I don’t care if you are NASA or Branson or Musk—it is really, really hard. And dangerous. And scary.”
Dotz takes a drink of coffee. “I look at that place and I couldn’t be more excited,” she says. “When I was a girl, all I wanted was to be an astronaut. And I gave up on that dream. But if I were a girl now and saw that? I’d believe. Just like I believe in it right now. Are we close to going into space, all of us? A lot closer than we have ever been.”
We talk for an hour. The thing about people like Dotz and McManus? They make you believe.
Call it a course correction.
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It’s easy to look at something like Spaceport and think it’s just a 21st-century version of a railroad spur to nowhere. But spurs to somewhere begin as spurs to nowhere. The hard part here is the timeline. This quest will not be measured in years but in lifetimes.
Right now, I feel we’re back where the US space program was in the days of Ham. Hokey as it sounds, yes, this is the dawn of the second space age. And we are in a moment when we are struggling to figure it out. The good news is it’s not just NASA working the problem. People from Dotz, making 3-D printers for the space station, to Elon Musk. The barrier to entry has been lowered. (And, as Bezos and Musk have shown, so has the barrier to vertical reentry.) And maybe the people who board Branson’s flights will be nothing more than wealthy Hollywood Hams (though they likely won’t end up buried in a parking lot in New Mexico). But a future where we all—or our descendants—have the potential to blast off after they take the first rides? Who’s not up for that?
This story appears in the March 2016 issue.